Join for FREE | Take the Tour Lost Password?

deviantART

 
About Me Premium Member Varied Artist nekophoenix21/Female/Ireland Recent Activity Deviant for 7 Years
6 Month Premium Membership:
Given by ~guessthebetta
Statistics 231 Deviations
14,330 Comments
188,890 Pageviews

Revelations

Wed Nov 11, 2009, 6:22 AM
  • Mood: Neutral
  • Listening to: Fear Satan - Mogwai
  • Eating: Freddos
  • Drinking: Water



Other account -> :iconramhorns:







New Zealand
I have returned from New Zealandary, last Thursday actually but I've been colleging and traveling. ALWAYS with the traveling!

Great time with th'family, went on a road trip, bungee jumped, jet boated, skyswing swung, ate a hangi, visited places of thermal activity, visited mountains, saw Mordor... loads of things, it might take about 10 paragraphs if I tried to name them all!

Though, college wise, the trip came at the worst time as I have again missed two weeks out of a 4 week assignment, it was actually extremely beneficial as it made me come to a lot of conclusions and revelations. They say that happens when you travel, I always thought it was just a load of bollocks.



Musings and revelations
(actually nothing to do with Muse the band, but I only just the connection there. I snorted.)
Whilst away, I had some massive revelations.


:bulletgreen: I don't hate graphic design.
I do, however, highly dislike how it is taught, it's utterly soul destroying, but it isn't the graphic design that I actually hate. This is HUGE for me, as for the past 3 years, all I've been spouting is how much I hate graphics (just as a reminder, I'm in a 4 year graphic design course in college) and just through noticing and appreciating some things on my travels, I realised just how much I DO like graphics.

I feel a very odd sense of peace from this, y'have no idea!


:bulletgreen: College is not more important than living.
Neither college nor work are the be all and end all. They are IMPORTANT, I don't mean I've come to this magical conclusion that college is useless and therefore I don't have to go, because that's not a revelation, that's just dossing! And without a job, ultimately, you don't have money and well we all know where that goes.

I have denied myself time with friends, time off with family, time for myself just to play a computer game, time to draw for myself... I have denied myself all this time, and even WHEN I spend time with others or drawing for myself, I'm forever feeling guilty and "omg, omg, I have to go, I have to do college work". I almost didn't go on the new zealand trip, because of college.

I CAN enjoy life, I can live, I don't have to just survive anymore, and that's how I've felt for years, that I am not living, just existing.

I will do college work, I will do it well - I am not a dosser, but I will also spend time with the ones I love, I will also spend time doing things for myself that I love, and I will not feel guilty about it. I AM allowed to have a life. Again, massive step for me and sense of calm.



New Work
As it stands, I am pretty unhappy with my work.
It is not at the level I'd like it to be, and I feel I have to break a few of my own rigid rules to improve (as in, stop spending extortionate hours on one picture, stop getting bogged down in detail, stop being so concerned with uploading things)

A part of me does want to throw everything in storage until I improve, but I'm not sure if that's wise just now.

I am disappointed that I have had nothing new in ~RamHorns for a while too, since that was supposed to be a place for my experiments, and it's turned into some sort of photography account. For those wanting to see experimental drawings, concepts, people and quests at improvement, don't worry, it ISN'T a photography account, and as soon as I actually start producing work again, I shall be uploading them :3

I hope, through my sense of renewal, that I will start producing work again very soon. For college, for myself, for other people. It's a big job, but I'm feeling optimistic :)



Questions
What is most important to you in life/some of the most important things?
Is your work space/room messy or tidy?
Would you rather have 10 kittens or 10 puppies?
Figurines or Plushies?

deviantID

Devious Info

  • Current Residence: Irelands
  • Interests: Drawing, Storms and the sky, Mythology, Computer games, Music, Colours etc
  • Favourite movie: Lion King, About a Boy, Bugsy Malone, Back to the Future trilogy
  • Favourite band or musician: I have many (But I adore Enya)
  • Favourite genre of music: Bits of everything really
  • Favourite artist: too many to name
  • MP3 player of choice: Windows Media Player
  • Favourite game: The Zelda series
  • Favourite gaming platform: Nintendo (most of the consoles)
  • Favourite cartoon character: Have no definite favourite
  • Personal Quote: "we gon' have a grand ol' yaoi time! DOWN ONNNN THA FAARRRMM" <- Molly
  • Tools of the Trade: Colouring pencils mostly, with occasional acrylics, marker and photoshop work

Friends

:iconrainwatercassette: :iconschonermond: :iconsylverkitsune: :iconricefish: :iconsavannahhorrocks: :iconskribbles: :iconfoxxie-angel: :iconscales: :iconnonparael: :iconcomic-heroine: :iconparadraik: :icondrazzi: :iconglowstickjuice: :iconneoikeia: :icontomoko-nyo: :iconchibigiggles: :icongallbladder: :iconrustyrainbow: :icontaxiderma: :iconredderz: :iconluve: :iconjaxxblackfox: :iconoo0shed0oo: :iconqueasy: :iconwayah: :iconcari: :iconfaerynatasha:

Webcam

Comments


:iconstareclypse:
You have such beautiful traditional work! I just adore your Okami piece!
:3

--
the tears will always leave you
with a brighter pair of eyes
and that the pain you've been fighting
is an angel in disguise
-Sara Slean
:iconpeachbite:
oh wow! So many updates in one day! Congrats!
:iconnekophoenix:
Haha, unusual for me, I know! I had them all done for a project the night before I left but couldn't upload before now :3

--
Neko Phoenix
can anybody stop this thing?
:iconschonermond:
GO TO BED HOLLY >8V


p.s. I say this with luvs, really, I do 8D

--
"I don't want you to think of me as a psychiatrist, I want you to think of me as a mental patient who killed the psychiatrist before you got here"

"Help I'm falling at a sixty degree angle breaking all the laws of physics!"
:iconnekophoenix:
It's back to the all nighters I'm afraid! I have... 2 days to get 10 finished pieces done, and then research and development work and CD's, print outs and PDFs. I have half of 1 picture done, hahahahahahahaha, oh, this is gonna be fun

Give bed a try!

--
Neko Phoenix
can anybody stop this thing?
:iconschonermond:
Aww, sounds like hell. Hope all goes well and you can get things done in time. College is so fun :c :hug:

ALL WE ARE SAYING IS, GIVE BED A TRY

--
"I don't want you to think of me as a psychiatrist, I want you to think of me as a mental patient who killed the psychiatrist before you got here"

"Help I'm falling at a sixty degree angle breaking all the laws of physics!"
:iconsasukekun12799:
thanks for visiting! :hug::love:

--
©BUY ME
▌│█│║▌║
Base of avatar by ~Fried-Jelly
:iconsylverkitsune:
:iconrainbowsheep2:

That is all.

--
... And while you're at it, keep the nightlight on inside the birdhouse in your soul. :rose:

FAQ #666: Does Complaints have a chat room?
You bet your sweet bippy! #TheComplaintsTavern
:iconrustyrainbow:
we hafta meet up some time when college isnt plaguing you @_@

--
next phase, next craze, next nothing new

Site Map