I am broken. I don't know how to function. I am not doing well. I am sorry.
Sorry, I know I was uploading a lot and then sorta... disappeared again over night. I got hit with two things pretty damn quickly. One of which is my landlords wanting to take the room back for their friend. At this time of the year and on top of the other things (some super serious; historical sexual assault - and others that just mean I'll be financially strapped again) it was just a bit of a spiral.
Though, I can't say for absolutely 100% certain, but it's looking like I'll at least have a room sorted (a friend of mine had a room going in their house), and I've counselling for the other stuff. Who knows, might even end up opening commissions or adopts again, new year depending, if people were still interested in things like that :3
So anyway, wanted to let you all know as I didn't want to be leaving you in the dark or making you think I don't care about this place or you lot, 'cause I sincerely do, and thank you for sticking around <3
Do you celebrate anything at this time of year?
If so, what?
Do you have your own traditions?
Are you looking forward to any particular presents?
If not, do you get bothered by all the people talking about it?
Do you have a particular way you spend time around December?
But I'm sick today, which means I FINALLY have the time to go through my watch-list and comment on everything I've wanted to comment on but didn't have enough time to dedicate to!
... there are pieces in there from LAST October.
Christ alive, what on earth is up with my time management skills?!
How are you today?
Are you participating in Inktober?
What is your favourite part of Autumn?
and I’ve just got Mario Kart, so hit me up!
I've been on dA for FIFTEEN years
That's longer than some of you have been alive :O!
As always, I might only pick one to draw! (I won't be drawing everyone's! Maybe just one or two)
I do this from time to time to force myself into drawing, to keep my practice up when I have no inspiration, AND because it’s nice to see a big showcase of everyone’s characters!
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R U L E S
- Limit of 3 references per person
- Can be own character, friends character or characters from shows/games
- Anthro and feral preferred for this; ponies and pokemon also fine!
- Must say “summer breeze” somewhere in your comment, otherwise you won't be counted! (just to prove you’ve read the journal :P )
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If I DON’T pick your character, please don’t be upset! They’re likely beautiful and unique, I just feel like drawing something else that day for whatever reason :3
Also, please don’t comment with “you never draw mine :<” because this really isn’t a competition and that kind of “woe-is-me” attitude towards what’s supposed to be a fun little character exchange is really off putting. If you are properly desperate for me to draw one of your characters you can always note me to negotiate a commission ;3
Show them here, I'd love to see!
Samples, prices and recommendations very much welcome! ♥
S'been a while since I've drawn anything furry-esque; been all humanoids and pokemons...
SO, thought I'd do another free sketch journal while I'm off sick because I'm getting cabin fevery
READ THE -RULES- PLEASE ♥
♥ Link me to one of your characters - only furries/anthros this time!
(you may include feral or even pokemon characters, but they will be anthro/furry-ised in the drawing in that case)
♥ MAXIMUM of THREE REFS per person please <3
♥ Friend's and official characters are also fine!
♥ NO specifics - this is a wing-it, free, fun situation
♥ No couples/no groups sorry!
♥ End result will be a sketch - might only pick the one! Please don't be disappointed if I don't pick you, it's nothing personal I just felt more in the mood to draw a different character this time around - I'm sure your character is lovely!
♥ To prove you've read these rules, please include "Smoky Quartz" in your comment
WELL, hello all you lovely people ♥ I am not dead!
I am actually working on a piece as we speak - a 2 character full digital prize, no less! ALL the big pieces a-comin' to your inboxes, veeeeerrryy slowly, hahaha! These bigger commissions and prizes obviously take a lot longer to make but they come with a lot of satisfaction in the end so I'm having a lot of fun with them! Mini spoiler - it's wintery themed :D!
So, yes, I just wanted to pop in and say hello, I still live, I am still working, my progress is just slower than it used to be what with the whole weekday job thing, but you're all wonderful and patient and I'm very grateful for you all ♥
Q U E S T I O N S
Are you excited for any sort of wintery celebrations?
Are you expecting presents, and if so, what?
SO. Things that have happened in the past little while...
| GOOD NEWS |
To put your minds at ease - I found a room :3!!!
The room is temporary, it's only for 2 months, but it gives me some breathing space to save up a little bit again and find somewhere on a more permanent basis. Plus, the couple who own this house are super friendly and flexible (and they have cats!) - I have a feeling that if I was really stuck after 2 months they wouldn't kick me out, which is very reassuring!
Also - I got a job! It's monthly pay and it's a 3 month provisional trial, so I'm still a biiiit fucked for money right now, but the exciting thing is that I WILL eventually have money coming in! You have no idea how excited I am at the prospect of being able to buy my friends some things - so, so, so many of my friends deserve nothing less than diamond encrusted mansions for their love and generosity, but I'm sure they'd appreciate a drink or a dinner or something too! I won't be able to buy these until my second paycheck (which won't be 'til the end of November because all my first paycheck will be spent up re-paying people, agh!), but it'll be SOON. SO soon. I'm quite excited about this!
I have at least one commission to be working on, and I haven't forgotten about my contest prizes either! I have a good few ideas I want to draw; a comic, some personal depressing bullshite, some funny depressing bullshite hahaha - but I think I should probably just start off with a warm up doodle to get back into the feel of it. Crawl before I can run again, y'know? So expect something small soon!
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| SAD/NOT-SO-GOOD NEWS |
In sad news - my beloved cat, Bam, who was 17, passed away a couple of weeks ago
I knew it was coming, but it doesn't make it any easier. It's only hit me in small bits - I haven't had the space to properly feel it what with th'whole looming homelessness thing, but I'm sure I'll be devastated when I go to the family home this weekend. But that's okay. It's okay to feel that.
Also, it's really weird adjusting to not being part of a couple. I don't really know what my identity is without another person, which is sad, and it does make me wake up some days still going "what's the point? Why am I even trying? Why am I doing a job/living in this city when I don't give a shit about me/don't even know what I want?" - which is hard.
However, today, I am just grateful to be here :3
Are you excited for Halloween? Do you have any plans?
You see, in less than a week, I need to be out of this house and I haven't secured a new place to live. I've been trying, I've been viewing houses and ringing around for rooms, but for whatever reason, no one is picking me to be their new housemate. I'm scared. I'm scared because I don't really even have the money for the deposit on a room, but I'd bloody find it from somewhere if I was just told I could have somewhere to stay.
So yes, that's why I've not been as active as I'd have liked, why I haven't had time to do the artwork I'd like and why everything might be up in the air for a bit. I'm desperately hoping I don't have to couch surf for very long.
Please, link to yours/a friend's character for a chance to get a free drawing
(I dunno what I'll be doing yet for it)
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- Max of 3 links per person
- No specifics! These will be fun surprises!
- Your comment must include the word "toffee" in some manner or else I won't count your character! (just to weed out those who just rush in for free arts but nothing else. It's just a simple curtesy thing! <3)
Those who follow me on tumblr have a small idea how how... not well I've been
I've got a lot of decisions to make, and not a lot of focus in my head. I... have to change my entire life and I no longer have a home so to speak, but hopefully I can make some good out of this and take the opportunity to figure out who I am and what I want out of life
I'm not okay, and I won't be for a while, but I'm more willing to try
I'm going to list out all my owed art
I have every intention of completing any/all art, but I am extremely grateful for everyone's understanding on this
[C O M M I S S I O N S ]
[P R I Z E S]
1st place prize | As yet undecided
2nd place prize | Kahyyim painting
3rd place prize | As yet undecided
please forgive my continued absence while I sort out what to do
Afraid this section will have to be fairly short! I fear I've developed a kidney infection and am in some BLINDING pain right now - all the night before I have to drive for 4 hours to go and camp in a field for 2 and a half weeks hahaha, oh, such is the timing of things
Yes, I won't be available until the end of July - I'm on a camping holiday; I might be able to check in every now and again but really I'd almost rather not just so I can get the time for my mind/soul. You can of course note or email me with any queries, but I just might not be able to get back to you until late July/the start of August. Thank you <3
So... on to what you've been waiting for...!
This has been the most ridiculously difficult decision I've had to make for a while; It's near impossible to pick a winner when there are so many beautiful and thoughtful entries (as you will have seen in my last journal, and if you didn't see, GO LOOK NOW) and honestly ALL of them deserve to place for one reason or another - be it skill, creative use of favourite things or just for the fact it made me smile on really shitty days - thank you everyone who took part, you're wonderful
Please rest assured that if you didn't win it wasn't because I didn't absolutely adore it, because I truly did love and appreciate all of the entries, I just physically can't draw up enough prizes for everyone <:C!
FIRST PLACE WINNER
Winner of two character max, digital coloured/shaded commission, with background or full reference sheet of existing character with front and back views, little feral chib, outfit options and expressions or extra details or a new character design is...
With the combined effort of their FOUR entries (I couldn't just pick one)
The effort and thoughtfulness that has gone into these is just mind-blowing - from the Okami constellations in the Wendigo's Lullaby to the tea piece PAINTED with god damn tea featuring a character I've submerged in tea. When I saw them pop up as entries my eyes actually sparkled with how touched I was pouring over the details of each and every one of these entries
SECOND PLACE WINNER
Winner of one character, digital coloured/shaded commission with simple background or - Reference sheet of existing character, front and back view, little feral chib or - new character design is...
With the combined effort of their THREE entries (again, couldn't just pick one)
There was actually four entries in a way as she created a brand new character for me, but set that aside from the contest just to ensure I'd have something for my birthday. Again, I just couldn't and still can't get over the amount of time and thought that went into each of these - from the ethereal to the fun and then the downright frightening-in-the-best-possible-way-I-didn't-even-know-I-could-enjoy-creepy-work-so-much, there were so many themes and so many nails hit on the head, and that has to be rewarded
THIRD PLACE WINNER
Winner of a Chibi-like commission, or Chibi-like character design (front view)
I couldn't pick one <:C!
There are several reasons why I picked these 3 (It killed me to just leave it at 3!) but the main reasoning is how each of them fit in the favourite things...
Nuka_Foxy3's entry wasn't just Harry Potter themed, it was specifically Ravenclaw themed featuring a character that really suits the Ravenclaw attire, and the patronus is a cat AND it's all happening against a twinkling night sky backdrop, not to mention how the art is just gorgeous by itself!
Nut-Case's entry (which was the very first one to the contest) doesn't just feature Neko with tea, it's Neko with tea, and music and the music is described in nebulas and colours, which I didn't even mention but I DO have synesthesia, which is so extra appropriate! I also LOVE to see when people play with Neko's markings, it makes me so happy
and you can just read in the description how much thought PreciousAngelWings put into theirs!
Okami inking styles, ponies, fairies, night-sky, CAKE (and such a contented little face with said cake too!) and what a seamless mix of traditional and digital :3!
All of th'winners will have their chosen prizes worked on after July
Thank you again everyone who entered and made this contest wonderful! I hope that you had fun with it!
My contest has come to a close and I have been absolutely blown away by the quality of the entries
I hope to come to a decision on the winners soon, but I won't lie, this is going to be really, really tough I can already tell; the quality, effort and creativity that have gone into these is so evident
I hate that I'm not well. I hate that I'll have freak outs or crashing lows over something as minor as making a decision or being asked my opinion. I hate that I feel like I'm embarrassing everyone or that I'm being a hindrance and that I have to keep justifying myself and my actions (*coughnotwhatthisisatallcough*). If you think it's exhausting to listen to a depressive asking if they've done something wrong or obsessing over whether you hate them or not - imagine actively always thinking it and needing reassurance but hating annoying people by asking, cyclecyclecycle.
I genuinely, sincerely, 100% wish I could just "get over it" and "think positive" but since that's the equivalent of telling someone with a broken arm to just grow another arm it's not looking likely and trying to force yourself to do regular things with an injury often impedes your recovery. However, like a broken arm will eventually heal (if a little wonkily), this will too, and I'm finally starting to believe that; so I thank you everyone who's been understanding and patient, everyone who's sent me messages and made me feel like you just honestly want th'best for me
What show can you rewatch over and over?
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